i will delete this soon
i wanted to stop making journals like these, but it just doesnt seem to pass and i want to get it out without bothering anyone.
i have been working on something
it turned out to be completely worthless, it does not look like i put any effort at all into it.
i know i shouldn't, but i keep comparing myself to others
and i see how much i lack.
im envious of people who can work on big projects and not give up.
i always end up either rushing or giving up on something that requires more effort than a doodle, because i do not have the energy to work on it properly
which is why other artists i know are better and more successful than me.
I don't think my art is worth the effort i put into it. It is meaningless and unneeded.
i'll never be a good artist.